Today is a day …

by 1200milestogo

Well, today is the first day of my transition period from smoker to non-smoker. I’ll be in this stage for quite some time as I’ve got to get used to doing things a bit different from now on. Rather than coffee in the morning I shall have to drink tea. Rather than taking a break from chores, homework, etc. to smoke, I will have to either forego the break entirely or take a break to stretch, breathe or go for a walk. I won’t consider myself a non-smoker until I’m able to go at least a week with no cigarettes and no nicotine replacement (i.e. patches, electronic cigarettes, etc.). It’s going to be hell on heels, too because we all know the Devil Wears Prada.

To answer your question, yes, I have smoked cigarettes today, but I’m down from a pack-a-day habit last year to about six cigarettes I’ve smoked today. Being “sensitive” to medications, I’m reluctant to put on a patch tonight as I’ve no cigarettes left since I have smoked today, so cold turkey the rest of the day it is. Well, there is that stuff I bought at the health food store, and clove bud essential oil from my home-based business seems to help as well. Goddess grant me the serenity to be peaceful during this transition period. For the sake of my family and my boyfriend’s sanity, please let this go well.

In other news, I haven’t written for several days now as I’ve been down for the count. In an effort to relieve the stress that is my life, I’ve been working through some issues (c’mon, we all got ’em, even you) and I think now the stress is somewhat under control, my body kind of gave up fighting. I woke up Saturday morning, the morning I was to go for my first hike with my training partner and friend, Jen, with sinuses full of gunk, earaches, achy, headache and WHINY. Poor Bill (that’d be the boyfriend I speak of).

When I woke feeling so awful, it took a minute to shake the sickness off for a brief period to remember that I’d forgotten my vitamins not just one day, but three. So, I choked down some yogurt, grabbed a jug of water, popped one dose of vitamins into my mouth and choked them down as well. Then I laid around watching TV, ignoring my laundry that was yelling “do me” from down in the deep, dank basement and spent the day alternating between that not-quite-sleeping state, poking around on facebook and a couple of TV shows.

Yesterday, I woke feeling just slightly better, only now not only did I have the previous symptoms, I also had a sore throat, swollen glands and my legs were complaining from not being used and abused as they had for four days previous. Terrific. So I rubbed Deep Blue into my muscles in my legs, Breathe on my neck, chest and under my nose and then I poured myself a cup of On-Guard tea and took another dose of vitamins and laid on the couch again. I dosed a bit, I computed a bit and I drank some more On-Guard tea. All-in-all yesterday, I took three doses of vitamins and four cups of On-Guard tea. I am feeling slightly better (I’m operating at about 50%) today other than that impending doom one feels when making any major change in their life … like becoming a non-smoker.

Well, with any luck, a little magic, a little ancient medicine and a lot of hope, love, studying and support, I’ll get through the upcoming semester at school not only with a higher cumulative GPA but also a little leaner, a little more in shape, a little more peaceful and a whole lot healthier and happier. Peace and blessings on all of our supporters, and as always, I thank ya!

~Krista